SCALES
When I was 18, I formed an eating disorder. My parents were going through a divorce and I felt like I was stuck in the middle. With what little control I had, I focused on my body. Weight, food, and exercise all factored in to what became an obsession.
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You can read each panel like a book, seeing how my weight progressed over weeks, months, and years. Scales without a number represent times I didn't weigh myself. Scales with red numbers signify memorable weights that greatly impacted my journey.
Loss
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This panel not only signifies weight loss but also the loss of myself; loss of any control I had as I brainwashed myself into anorexia.
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I felt highs when I jumped on the scale and saw a number lower than the last time. But I also felt extreme lows when I ate something that I thought I shouldn't or felt like I ate too much.
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It became a game to me.
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And I was losing.
Recovery
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With the help of professionals, as reluctant as I may have been at the time, I was able to start changing my mindset and gradually recover to a healthy weight.
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Even though I am now within a healthy weight range, the mental aspect of my eating disorder will always be a part of me.
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I have good days, and I have bad days, but over the years, I've learned how to better cope with the negative thoughts that arise.
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Recovery is a journey.